Summer has been in full swing around our place making for a
very busy schedule. That would explain
the absence on the blog over the last few months. I’ve been trying to put more focus into my
daily living and the service of my family so it seems as if the blog was sort
of dropped off the list for a while.
Let me first say that this is off subject from what I
normally write about and more out of my comfort zone as it will address my
Christian walk and the spiritual journey I am walking daily in hopes of getting
closer to my creator.
Someone posted something the other day that really struck a
cord with me. It wasn’t necessarily the
scripture because it was true, but it was the added comment that seemed to knock
on my door. I’m not here to debate the
context of the scripture or to get into a heated discussion about how it is
applied to our lives today. I’m simply
saying that it affected me in a way that I wanted to address something openly
because it seems to have been laying on my heart. Maybe there is a reason for that and maybe
not, but here it goes…
For a very long time in my adult life, after becoming a
Christian, I have hidden in one way or another be it preventing others from knowing about my colorful past or by physically covering myself up to hide what may cause
someone else to see me as “less” of a Christian. Even though there is no ranking system making
one person a better Christian than another, I felt ashamed and unworthy of the
bonds we can build with each other on a spiritual level. I understand that only God knows our hearts
so it becomes easy for us to judge each other simply by what we see from the
outside. We don’t have the capacity to
look inside each other and to know our true intentions so we can sometimes base
our opinions off nothing more than how we see each other physically.
I will be the first to admit that I am far from perfect and
have more rough edges than most people you meet on a daily basis, especially
those who wear the name of a Christian.
However, that doesn’t keep me from trying daily to live better and get a
closer walk with my creator.
2Timothy 2:15 “Do your best to present yourself to God as
one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly
handles the word of truth.”
After reading that post I began to think about my journey
throughout this year to stop hiding behind a veil so as not to be seen under
too much scrutiny because, after all… I am still a sinner. One thing I have come to know for sure is
that you can only hide for so long. It’s
exhausting because you become a slave to the thoughts and judgement of others
rather than focusing solely on how we are seen through the eyes of God. To help break free from those chains, I have
made a conscience effort to stop hiding and be completely open with who I am
and where I have come so that I could maybe encourage someone else along the
way. At the very least it would be
releasing that burden that bonded me to the idea of judgement from others and
how I am perceived because of choices I made before becoming a child of God.
I am created new in Christ so that old person no longer
walks in these shoes. – Romans 6:4 “We were therefore buried with him through
baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead
through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new live.” NIV
Wow!!! I get the same reaction every time I read that and
typing it out sends a renewed energy through my entire being. Really!?!?!
It is possible that someone like me who made some really bad choices far
after reaching an age to know better could be forgiven and allowed to live as
if it never happened in the eyes of God.
YES!!! THAT IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE!!! That is the power of our almighty God.
We live in a fallen world where our sins are forgiven by our
Heavenly Father, but we are not always excused from the consequences of our bad
choices here on earth. Sometimes, the
decisions we made have a lasting effect in this realm that cannot be always be
undone. A thief who turns from his ways
can repay those he has taken from or a relationship can be ended if it was built
in error. I’m sure I could add to the
list fairly easily if I were to spend the time on it. Then, there is the other side of the coin.
There are those sins that cannot be undone in this life. A murderer will pay for his crime sometimes
with his own life through capital punishment or by spending his life behind
bars in a prison cell. If he is
converted and forgiven from God, that won’t change the fact that he will spend
his natural life right where he is, but it does NOT make him any “less” of a
Christian in the eyes of God. You know
what that does make him? A forgiven and loved child of God that will receive
his reward just as the rest of us will one day when we wake up on the other
side of Heaven.
You are probably wondering what my point is by now since I
seem to be rambling a little. I will get
to it, I promise. My point is that we
are ALL from a line of two fallen people who disobeyed God in the Garden of
Eden. That makes all of humanity connected through an earthly bond so we are in
a sense brothers and sisters alike. So, wouldn’t I go out of my way to bring my
sister or brother into a life for God? Don’t we want to see our family living
for the creator of this world rather than suffering the fate of not knowing
Him? How can we do that if we are so quick
to look down on someone because of what we “think” they may be like because of
how they look or dress? We are not
simply born into the fold of God because we are born into this world. That is a decision that is made by each of us
at different points in our lives. If
that were not so then we would all be maturing at the same rate based on how
long we have been on the earth and not on how mature our walk is becoming with
God.
Why do we feel it necessary to judge each other because of
what we may look like or how we have cared for our body? The truth is we don’t really know anyone
until we know their heart. Careful in
how you pass a blanket judgement, especially as a Christian, because we can
cause them to turn away believing they could never be worthy of a life with
Christ simply because of past choices they may have made. God has an open door
for ALL of us and it does not have an age limit, a weight limit, a past sin
quota, a no marks on your body policy or anything of that nature.
We have to be careful not to put limits on
someone by how you see them physically when you have no idea about their
heart. We could so easily turn someone
away from the Gospel because we want to look our nose down at people who may
not look like what you think a Christian should look like. I know I don’t look like it and truth be
told, I don’t always act like it. I would
love to tell you that I reflect God with every breath I take, but I don’t. I slip, I fail, I sin and I am not where
others may think I should be as a Christian, but God knows my heart. When I am trying to do better or change, it
is important for other Christians and other people in general to allow me to
change and see me as who I wish to become.
Seeing them as anything less does not help them get closer to God. It makes us feel like we will never be good enough
to be in your circle, we will never be clean enough to walk the streets
representing God in our daily lives.
After all, you have been a Christian for a long time and you pretty much
have it honed in and we see you as a leader for us, but when you seem to think
you are better than us, we believe you.
You know why? Because you have been a Christian for a long time and
rather than question you, we doubt ourselves. Is that really the result you want from your actions?
Please be careful not to do that!! When I read that comment, I really
felt like they were talking directly to me and I know that I sin and fall short
of God’s glory, but I try to get better every single day. It was hurtful because rather than seeing
that everyone is in a different stage of their salvation, it seemed like I was
being called out because I may have done something when they think I should
have known better. Maybe I haven’t
gotten to where you are yet, but that doesn’t mean I am less than you in the
eyes of God. You have made much better
decisions in your past than I have, but that still doesn’t make me less.
I say all this to say that God is NOT just for the clean,
pressed pant type person who may “look” the part. God is a savior for the sinners!! That
includes us tattooed, body marked, rough around the edges, crazy people trying
to make our way in a fallen world so that we can get to Heaven and live with
our King. God is for ME!!!
It doesn’t matter what I look like, God loves me. It doesn’t matter that choices I made have a
lasting effect on my earthly life, God loves me. It doesn’t matter who I was before, God loves
me. You know what…he loves me NOW!! Right here, right now, He loves me just as I
am. That doesn’t mean I don’t have
changing to do to my life daily in order to live in His kingdom someday. It means that He has given me a map to Heaven
that leads to a kind of treasure that is far beyond anything I could imagine…I
need only to follow the directions.
So, I stop hiding! I
stop covering up the struggles I face so that you know there is no sin too
great to bring to God for forgiveness.
Even as a Christian we will struggle and I know that I fail God
daily. I make the same mistakes again
and then I make new ones (I’m gifted that wayJ)
but God is there to pick me up again and again never failing to forgive me for
stumbling. I stop covering up my tattoos
because it is part of me and God loves ALL of me. Some people found them offensive saying I
defaced my temple and have said as much to me. It was hurtful because you have
no idea about my life and who I am as a person. Besides, that same defacing the
temple argument could include a lot of things that I am sure we wouldn’t want
placed on the list such as smoking, overeating, drinking, ear piercing, make-up, etc. Any number of these things could be considered defacing because it changes or alters the way it looks…just saying!
We have to put that aside and be
concerned with each other’s hearts and if we are doing something against God’s
commands then He tells us exactly what to do about it in Matthew 18:15 “If your
brother or sister sins, go and point out their fault, just between the two of
you…” NIV.
However, we do have to make sure that we understand it is a Biblical
command they are breaking and not because we don’t know they did this before
becoming a Christian or because it goes against our personal standards. God will judge us by Biblical standards and
those are the acceptable rules by which to try and help someone see their error. I've reached out to try and see where I offended them and how I could make it right and understand where I erred in my decision, but they have not responded. All I ask is that you show me the scripture so that I can become more educated and know not to make the same mistakes. When it is scriptural, I am not offended at all and earnestly want to know so that I can do better. I can't do better until I know better so simply bring it to me in scripture and I will have an open heart to receive it and will apologize publicly if necessary.
Passing judgement on someone based solely on what you see
physically or what we perceive to be true can be a turning point pushing them
further away from God. So, I won’t hide anymore
because I don’t want you to think if you are marked (be it ink, a title, a
reputation, mental illness, etc.) that God isn’t for you because He is for
everyone. He loves ALL of you too no
matter where you came from, no matter what you look like, no matter what
decisions you have made, HE LOVES YOU!! There is no reason for me to hide
anything because God will still allow me into His fold and will do the same for
you. It is liberating to realize and
fully accept that God accepts me because of my faith and obedience.
So, when you see me and you see my tattoos or watch me spiraling
because I forgot my medication or you see me quietly sitting in the corner,
know that my label hasn’t changed. I am
still a child of the King!!! There is victory in that!
God wants all of us to come to repentance 2 Peter 3:9 “The
Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. Instead He is patient with you, not wanting
anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”
My hope is to encourage you to know that God loves the
sinners and knows the condition of our heart so don’t hide behind the judgment
of others. When we have placed our lives before God and live for him through
His word, He sees us as His children and not by what we look like on the
outside.
I’m not here to debate what would fall onto the list of
defacing our bodies. That is not for me
to say. I’m just saying that we can’t
put one person on the “shame” list because they have one of them and leave
ourselves off because we have a different one from the list. I am here to say that no matter what you see
on the outside of me, I am still a Christian and God will call me home one day
and none of this will matter anyway. I'd be lying to say I wasn't looking forward to that day. My family means everything and I love them with all that I am, but I want more than anything to go home and live with my King.
If there is an actual list in the Bible, please do tell me
through the scriptures and the context of which it was written and I am more
than happy to follow the word of God and try and help others do the same. My personal feelings about something simply
doesn’t matter when it comes to a command in the scripture. If there is a
conflict between my feelings and the scripture, the scripture will ALWAYS win
because that is from God.
Now that I look back on this past week, I am actually thankful for that thought provoking comment (as hurtful as it was) because it has made me take a much deeper look into the scriptures and dig a little deeper into my heart. That is what we are to do and when we learn more of what to be from God's word, we get closer to the King.
Just a note from my heart to yours…
