Coming Completely Undone

So, where have I been, why did I leave and what is happening now that I a coming back?

Growth is an amazing thing that happens with time.  Sometimes we can feel it happening and gently we bend with the ebb and flow of the current as it brings change.  Other times it hits so hard and fast that we completely break open because the mold we live is only so malleable at any given time. My shell broke and I've had to seek shelter from complete exposure. I didn't want to stifle the growth, but I couldn't process it without taking cover.  

Yoga Teacher Training changed me in a way that I can’t put into words.  That’s kind of a big deal for someone who likes to label themselves a “writer.” Something inside me woke up in a way that wouldn’t let me rest until the process came full circle. It was a breaking open kind of growth and I spent so much time trying to put the pieces back together that I didn’t realize the shell that came apart at the seams was no longer meant for me.

While it’s been quite the experience, I can now look back with gratitude having finally found a stable footing to reflect.  I think reflection is key whether you live with mental illness or you have a perfectly functioning brain.  Personally, I wouldn’t know what “normal” function is like, but I can tell you as someone who lives with Bipolar that reflection is often the difference in understanding what is reality and what is perceived.  It’s a daily question of what is happening and if that is real or if my mind has construed information in a way that is wasn’t intended. Because I am up several days in a row and sleep is constantly interrupted by horrific dreams, my brain gets tired and things sometimes don’t fully make sense. 

Believe it or not, my yoga practice (second to my spiritual walk) has been the anchor through all the craziness.  That is the beautiful thing about a practice.  You don’t need to keep up with anyone or do anything for the sake of doing it.  Just show up, let it unfold and it will take you places you never knew you wanted to go.  In doing that, I have found where my heart lives as a teacher and that is something every teacher journeys to find out, I think anyway.  

The amazing thing about this whole process is realizing my connection to energy work.  Sound and chant drew me in from the beginning and as I began working with a mentor I started to realize the connection those things have to energy flow in the body. This made for a natural transition into becoming a Reiki practitioner and finding my authenticity as a teacher.    

It’s fun to break up every now and then and teach a hot flow or vinyasa with some fun music and let the body work, but I don’t teach from a place of fun…I teach from a place in my heart. So, I am shifting my focus and will continue in studio as a Restorative teacher.  Every Thursday, beginning May 10th, I will teach the 4:30 pm Restorative Yoga infused with Reiki and sound

I’m also offering Reiki/Sound sessions by appointment only. Those can be scheduled by emailing me directly at judymoss@live.com or you can schedule via text at (479) 899-3037. Distant Reiki is also available with a free consult before scheduling the session.

You can always email or text with any questions you may have or if you just want to know more about the practice in general. Energy work is heart work and if I can help, I am happy to do so without obligation or commitment to schedule anything.